some celebrations from my peeps.

sat, went to amk hub wit tioman gang, went for movie & hebo ( dunno issit like tt spell ) playing some boardgames, was quite fun la. than cabbed down to holland v "wala wala" for e live band. ate dinner there and drank quite alot of beers, which i dun really like. all e bills they paid for me.. really thanks for those ppl who come.. thanks once again..

sun, went to meet ex energie staffs, they had a gathering today and i din noe tt they actually celeb my bd as well. best bought me cookie from famous amos. and they treated me e dinner buffets @ a korean resturant. but e food so-so onli.. mayb im not a fan of korean food ba.. than went over to mos for chatting and bid gd byes.. they are sweets la =)

i cried.

and im sorry.

some updates.

2 major down. left a minor.. but enough to be contracted.

somehow, i was thinking am i taking e correct path, ya truth there are jobs out there.. so the thing is..

am i eyeing for e money or i like this job..?

yeah, i dun denied that how i told ms ma, that this job is really meaningful in a way, depends on indivdual thou. but truth enough i think tt there is a way to build up this career, depend on whether i wanted to work hard anot.. and for this career, i gt to really get back all my connections. and i truthly believe.. those ppl tt i approach will be those that i care.. i really dunwan the evil money to be rooted in my heart.

the next two-three months will be a challenge for me.. teoweilun.. are u ready ?

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okie abit random.

my close buddy had lost his mum last friday, death reason is heart attack. life can be how fragile.. she look so strong, and speak so loud.. nv seen her have any health prob b4.. and now.. she walk out of her life.. its really struck my head.. gona cherish watever u have now.. every single things !!

i shall cherish my family, ms ma, my lovely bros and buddy and friends that cherish me as well.. =)

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stucked @ ms ma hse on e sunday.. i thnk weekend spending time wit her are good. =) i think i started to like homely feeling. haha. and i dun denied her mum really cook gd foods. haha ! and yuki is damnn fat! keke.. btw sunday happen to be out 5month together.. ha.. i think ms ma dun even remember.. but nvm.. =)

suddenly i feel tt im damn useless.

seems like i cant gib her anything now, wanted to bring her out for a clean breathe due to her tight workloads. but yet, she being understanding and said a simple celebration will do..

i din wana really celeb, all i wan is to let u relax urself. but i failed badly..

somehow, i almost say out that better leave me.. and find a better one.. that might be able to give her secure, financial secure.

and maybe in such her family will be more willing to accept that person..

damn sucks.

when u wanted someone to tell u the truth, and they refused.

you feel helpless.

and if they told u,

u might be felt that, why tell me ? maybe im kept in e dark, i might be more happier.

but,

is this e correct way for life?

isnt should be human learn from their mistakes, and preventing to fall on e same scenario ?

confused.

known or unknown ?

some updates.

one major paper down, two to go. nearest paper will be on tues. gona starts mugging on sun and mon, hope everything go fine. i have to pass, have to.

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been spending two solid day wit ms ma.

on fri, ms ma is sweet enough to took leave and acc me to e temple for bai bai.. as recently not very smooth.. which i think so too. and after that when to bugis for some shopping before we had settled down @ soup spoon for lunch.. damn full.. and back to ms ma house for nua-ing. dinner-ed wit ms ma family, watch tv and home sweet home.. ms ma recently easily tire, dunno wat happen to her health, kind of worry of her..

on sat, give ms ma a surprise in d morning to acc her for breakfast.. woke up damn early.. we had a heavy breakfast, i took a short nap at ms ma bed wit ms ma's dog,. yuki sleeping beside me. haha. she changed alot of positions while sleeping beside me, although im sleeping but i could feel somehow. ms ma waited for me to wake up and we set for to mustafa for her stuff. walk over as we always did.. and finally ms ma bought her stuff. and i gt my stuff as well.. ha.. weather raining cats and dog.. lucky we bring alot yu san. makan a nice nasi lemark along bra basah and off to ms ma house nua again.. we are both tired and.. we both had headache. haa~

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had some events ongoing march and april, hope everything went well.. =)

im in a tired mode nw. gosh, after bath do make me think clearer.

okie.

im totally speechless when there would be someone out there told me that, "there is nth to talk", my next reacts from my twist of tiny winny brain will be, this person have nth to tok to me, so mayb we shall end e convasation. but deep in e heart, came with needle poked, and lead to un-explain-able pain, if u will be asking me. yes, explaination was done by u. maybe everyone have the different way of thinking, we cant expect everyone to be e same, accept e same logic whoever have. "give and take"..

*dang*

im like thinking, anything went wrong ? it might be a starting spark which undectable now, mayb now, but infuture who noes.

define of "nth to talk" : there is no such define.

so ans is, there is no wrong nor correct ans.

just ya, feel kind of uneasy during e journey..

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went morning movie wit ms ma. watching " marley & me ", very nice movie with touching storyline and gd actors, okie and not forgetting cute and clever dogs. ( there is alot dogs interm of acting at different age stages ) , 4.9 popcorn out of 5. cos e movie caused my loves one cried =)
ms ma cried. which is understandable, cos i did as well. but not to e extend of weeping, but ya wet kind.. sent her home and off to woodland to look for irene for mugging. weather was cold, and a cup of hot choc made e wonder.

bascially, i failed 2 major exam which is m5 and m9, will be taking HI tml. not much confident, but will try my very best. will be retaking m5 on wed again. hopefully i could pass.

offered a temp job from e help of irene and ofcos her boss as a telemarketer, hope to ease some cash flow prob. =)

everything is fine so far.

ohya, sat went to msia for dinner/supper. and packed ms ma unorganised bed, she said she like it, gona obtained a charge from her soon. *point e cashier* haha~

gona back to mugging. bye.