现在凌晨三点钟，就快要四点了

天空正下着绵绵细雨，刚结束了麻将session和han & co。。

我是大输家！可能太少玩了，变得比较生疏。。哈哈！！还给自己找借口。。

hmm.. i think i use back english to type.. LOL! the reason is.. my han yu ping ying really cmi sometime.

maybe this is also part of the process..

i hate it when u have problem u choose to swallow it yourself.

i hate the feeling when i'm helpless, seeing u crying.

i hate it when you mind whenever the topic goes to him, its seems like makeing you starts thinking of the past..

i hate it when u mentioned that u thought of leaving me is to ease my pain..

maybe end of the day the problems dun lie on me, but i thought we said that we will talk things out..?

well.. thing juz go rd and rd.. ya maybe sometime emo stand a very big part that lead to such thinking. but however.. i juz feel weird..

cos..

if we are saying abt problem between us, okie, maybe it sound more reasonable.. but problems is lie on the past, which puzzle me..

我是替代品吗？