last day of '08.

last yr i dunno how i celeb but by now i should be outside celebing.. im still in ns yet im able to celeb, ironically is after my ns life im into the social, im almost peniless to celeb this event. and now i have to make ms ma so worry tt she feel useless for unable to help me much.

dear, its not u useless, is i dunwan u to involves. dun worry 2009 i will settle everything.. and i love u. thanks for the concern. *muazks*

and now.. im at home.. watching tv.. really dun have the mood to go out. although frenz are nice to ask me out, but i feel that i will definitly spoilt the atmosphere.. sorry guys. hope u guys enjoy =)

okie man, i gona sit back and enjoy my tv celeb of countdown on both channel u & 5 and mayb 8 ? i not very sure. hahaha..

ms ma now is enjoying herself at bali enjoying the good foods ! jesus ! haha, nvm, shall visit that place again since she said the foods is nice, oink.

lastly,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 !!

im deeply in stressed.

someone pls get rid of 2008 now, and welcome 2009.

screw it.

what happen to you?

i think this is the only channel i could use.

times of flocking u with question, u seems to be hiding away..

sign.

am i demanding something ?

why i will have such feeling ?

soul-searching might be fine.

anyway happy xmas, hope that its a delighting session for everyone, ya perhaps me as well.

i offically down with block nose with unlimited flows of liquid + body ache.

morning was a havor, can i dun recall / mayb forget will be nice.

having a 3rd time par tor wit ms ma. as wat she said, our dates can be count by our hand, ya onli one will do.. i was visiting my outlet, and she tag along shopping/hunting/explore places that she nv been before.. the result was.. good. ha ! the onli part that i dislike was..

WHERE IS THE PIZZA PLACE AT JP !? argh.

but at least we are not as mountain tortisties for the new building JP2 laurching. ha. well, its practically full of ppl.. shopping, eating and "ah beng-ing"?! haha !

hmm, ohya i had a total of 3 days OFF last weekday. was doing nothing, ya nothing.. haa except for wed, ms ma took a mc, and i acc her the whole day at her house nua-ing. other than that. nothing much special.

ohya i played mj wit han & co. i won alot -.-" very paisei.

okie, i gona go lie down. now im seriously having body ache around me. and slight headache.

anyway,

HAPPY 2ND MONTH ANNVIERSAY MS MA, *MUAZKS*
*okie we dun celeb such thing. we onli celeb for yr anniversay =)

my mood of the nite.

from,

worry to,

frustrated to,

calm to,

moody to,

stressed.

well, perhaps thats the part of the journey.

okie random me.

thanks, when im down you are always there.

thanks, when u always wanted to talk thing out.

thanks, when u waited for me in wee hrs after my work.

thanks, when you understand my working condition that needs to be commit on weekends.

thanks, when u dun mind abt my worst scenario now.

thanks, when u always wake me up without fail.

thanks, when u always buy me breakfast where u afraid tt i skipped my meals.

thanks, when you always tot of my 2 sweet sisters.

thanks, when problem appear, u'll always think of my position first.

thanks, when u really mind of my feelings so much.

thanks, when u know that im tired, and chase me home.

thanks, when ur mum starts to question u abt me, u will always put on gd words of me. (altot its truth *wink*)

thanks, when u put me first in ur list of xmas present list, but pls dun buy anything for me k =)

thanks, u make me feel love..

thanks, ms ma.

okie, alot thing to be post. but 1 by 1 entry okie.

firstly is outing wit my Ms Ma. =)

was just so random that we was discussing where shall we eat, and i randomly shoot out, "swiss meat ball!!" , she gone crazy by typing this.. (pls dun do it at home, tah glam)

me: thinking of having..

ms ma: of wat?

me: swiss meat ball..

ms ma: 1!!!! <-- excited until typo.

ms ma: OK

ms ma: SET

ms ma: LOL

ms ma: MEAT BALL!!!!!!

okie.. thats how crazy she is.. haha, we went to the tamp ikea outlet. omg, was drizzling. and lucky i bring along yu san.. so we searching for the makan place.. and we found it !! but the crowds was so scary. luckily we found a seat and met the cheerful lady who is crippled, but she look cheerful which is gd and the most wonderful part is, she let us have the seats as she is leaving soon..

the foods turned out to be not as mightly as the past !! tastes dropped.. after the meal, we walk ard for ms ma's xmas presents.. and i found her twins..

her twins!!

think we saw a few items and put them in the KIV lists.. and next went down to town! for some jalan jalan.

tah glam position of ms ma, she gona kill me for this. LOL!

the xmas tree outside raffles place.

me & ms ma.

ms ma & me.

okie, i gona do some prep to pick up ms ma from work. homely dinner today =)

现在凌晨三点钟，就快要四点了

天空正下着绵绵细雨，刚结束了麻将session和han & co。。

我是大输家！可能太少玩了，变得比较生疏。。哈哈！！还给自己找借口。。

hmm.. i think i use back english to type.. LOL! the reason is.. my han yu ping ying really cmi sometime.

maybe this is also part of the process..

i hate it when u have problem u choose to swallow it yourself.

i hate the feeling when i'm helpless, seeing u crying.

i hate it when you mind whenever the topic goes to him, its seems like makeing you starts thinking of the past..

i hate it when u mentioned that u thought of leaving me is to ease my pain..

maybe end of the day the problems dun lie on me, but i thought we said that we will talk things out..?

well.. thing juz go rd and rd.. ya maybe sometime emo stand a very big part that lead to such thinking. but however.. i juz feel weird..

cos..

if we are saying abt problem between us, okie, maybe it sound more reasonable.. but problems is lie on the past, which puzzle me..

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