im done with the update. =)

time check, 0300am.

i juz had my short break accompanied with four leaves's bread and some hot drinks, later gona going back for my mugging session. *yawn*

well, the purpose of writing this.. today.. i somehow feel that my parents are really sweet.. why ? usually they will be taking some "allowance" from me while im working, but now.. my mum out of nowhere pass me money w/o reason, and my dad "maybe" waited for me till wee hours and wit a shag look and passed me money as well.. din stated any reason.. but.. its the thought that count.. dad and mum, i appreciated it =) *muazks*

and my mum was cute enough, wanted to treat me makan @ sakura on my bd itself. and she asked ms ma along as well, as ms ma bd is juz one day before mine. its juz sooo random.. she juz came to my room and pop out this decision.. ha ~

and ms ma.. oso poped out a suggestion regards of our bd as well out of nowhere today.. love her suggestion as well.. =) thanks dear.. !! if nth went wrong we will go as e plan k.. =)

suddenly i feel that no doubt im in this state now.. but this is oso moments that make me feel loved, care and concern all ard.. yes im might be selfish, how i wish i could stay on this and shower by them.. ha ~

thanks everyone who cares such a tiny-winny-me-ok-maybe-a-fatter-size-i-lie, appreciated it..

back to mugging.

一直是我陪你去躲回忆里的雨
你无心的叹息有心碎的声音
他的好他的坏他的不安定
他的故事是我和你爱情里的乌云

从我爱上爱他的你那个瞬间起
一直是雨天你只爱雨天我用伞保护你
亲吻着你苦涩味道的微笑
闭着眼睛我明白你想念他的秘密

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

聆听你说抱歉多过你说我爱你
你困在雨里我困在雨里我的伞湿淋淋
『没关系』是我最常说的一句
就让我等就算我冷至少我陪着你

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

this song really matched me. ha, but the last phrase say e answer as well.. =)

im not emo, just tt this song do suit the position in the past, mayb 2months ago..

talk about ready, under the deep thought, i think we still got a long way to go.. im started to tone down, not to think too much, perhaps, the more i think, the more burdden i had.

the emotional twisted inbetween the process making me breathless, sometime. mayb my pace was too fast for u.. and i take things for granted in a way.

more to learn, teoweilun.

how silly im ? comparing of time of time u "neglect" me, my feeling, my exist.. when i did not stand at your position to think twice. started to find out that i gt more to learn as in maintaining a healthy relationship between me and u. perhaps its the aftermath reason that ur exist had became more and more impt and i started mind of watever u said, u did, ur emotional.. thinking deeply, it might be the effects tt i love u more than before. a good sign?

gotta learn & wake up, teoweilun !

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Cny celeb was as usual bored, but visited more places than before. ms ma was not wit me this yr celeb, she is not ready (i suppose) and shee do have her own programe with her family & friends. Gambling during CNY is a must. but my luck was on off. win here, lose there. overall banluck is much more better than mj, even my dad gamble which seldom see him does in the past, perhaps for the merrier with the kids/adult.

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job seeking wasnt very smooth. passed the 2nd interview but have to wait for another reply reasons was "empolyer market" which i dun denied, but i cant be there waiting rite. on going finding for job as well.. and i got to get a job within this month, be it good pay or sucks pay. the stress level is overlapping my limits. mayb juz a bit more of with my finger length, juz a little bit more. given not bad offers nowadays, but i dun pit on any hope in it unless its CONFIRM..

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recently having some difficulty in sleping. its a bad sign. bad omen. usually how late i slep, i could juz lie on my bed, and poof, im dead slepping snoring thruout the nite. but hey, now is.. no matter how early i tried, how tired im, but still 4-5am slep. sometime even morning sun, where i could heard my daddy preping for his stuff to work.. how ironic, im there lying on bed, trying to slep, whereby ppl already fully washed up and prep-ed to work.

what going on wit me. i could easily slept at ms ma house. but y my room i cant. sigh