hmm, im sooo relaxed ! haha.. im in-officially grad le !! keke, except for e cert onli.. but after grad for 2 days, i starts to be bored. LOL !! sooo little thing to do sia.. and its sooo awkards !! hmm, i shall do sum sports to train my my stamina ba. make full use of e time. swimming, jogging and bball !! and mayb sum beachvolleyball if gt time to sentosa !! i MISSED MY VOLLEYBALL !! damn. i tink i lose all my skills liao, esp e opening ball tt i learn ver long. haha..

well, last few days which is tue nite, is my dulan day. haha.. i tio ljw by ppl again, this time rd is classmate. SONG ~ altot i nv heard it myself, but e attempt of not calling mi to study have make u soooo suspicisous. u can call sumone live bedok to sembawang but y not a hougangian ? issit too far for me ? hmmm.. im no dumb. but i still go when im not invited to e study session. cos i onli WANA study, u tink i go there play ? altot its abit cramp and small e table, but there is no need for u to mubbling those stuff out. be more considerate okie. i nv shoot u thing, and u better zi dong and keep ur mouth shut. if i wana shoot u, i cfm gt more things to shoot u. i juz dunwan make e whole thing worst. i actually think alot of thing after my past incidents, even tt person say ljw, i oso wun do anything to him/her cos it wun help. juz dun get too close to him will do. but tt doesnt mean tt he/she can shoot mi ljw and i wun tok back. i still will if it offense me. bear tt in mind. i noe u tooo well, esp ur lies. =) well, sch have been over.. let see how thing goes..

hmm.. have gd news from my work. will be workin alot of days !! woot. will kept mi busy too. but i prefer to be busy than slack!

juz back from otuside wit roy, window shopping at suntec, ms and espla well.. i tried sum jacket.. seem like.. doesnt suit mi well.. haiz.. i tink im getting toooo fat liao. even jacket oso dun suit mi. damn. i really must keep down my fats and keep my weight at 65 or lower ! and waist 30 than to 28.. WOOT can i ? haha.. i try la... anyway back to e topic, we went eat e nice prawn mee recommanded by roy, not bad ba, but abit salty. haha.. eh than we actually have a chat session at e roof top of espla.. saw 1 guy rubbing his face/head at e women breast or wat shit la. damn censored. and LJ abt 2mins. LOL~ sorri for being so KPO, cos their exist was direct vision of mine. so i cfm will see tt.. =X and when they walk past, roy said , " SUCKS!! " HAHA !! than we go back ms after those chats. we search for dinner now.. hmm walk here walk there.. in d end stop at secret recipe. LOL~ we was e last customer. and luckily we still in e last order ! and we ate until e whole shop was looking at us.. hahaa.. they waitin to wash our plates. LOL!!

happy 22th bd to me.

0232am

hey hey ~ ( jacky's style) haha, well, im damnnn bored. WHY ?!

no work for mi again this weekend. haiz.. which mean i getting leong again. and still so much prob cum.. i really cannot take it liao.. worst still, my bd next week -.-" gosh, where i find money to celeb.. when i told my frenz tt i wun be celebrating.. everyone tot tt im kiddin tt i no $. actually i dun like e feeling of going out w/o money, make mi feel insecure. duh.. but koh insist to go out at sat.. shall see how ba.. and han's oso insist me to go out at fri. i noe their intention ba, damn touched, but sumhow.. dunno how to explain oso..

more or less sat i most probably working.. if i still not earning anything, i cfm siben jialat.. to be frank, i have been almost 6 days nv went out liao, except inbetween got go meet my classmate for short studying and took notes. Whole day at home is killing mi.. and everytime i read my html, i felt no confident at all.. altot i make e effort to write down e key point.. but i dunno it will helps anot.. my text book is too thick for me. and most probably i din pay attention on teacher lesson ba.. cos mostly his lesson, we r typin, not reading e notes inside e textbook. so.. when i open e textbook, i was damn lost. dunno where is where. LOL. bo bian, have to study e past yr papers and sum notes ba.. hope it will helps.

damn headache now. y recently so much prob occured ? i really dunno i can cope anot. and my plans for futher studying, class 3 licenese seem to be delay again. i despo need a class 3 licenese, but... haiz !! i go back study notes liao.

0123am.

was back early from work today.. long hrs of standing kills mi lot. ofcos in condition of my illness oso.. was damn sick now.. flu stop, cough cum back.. cough stop, flu back.. -.-" non-stop sia.. was damn irrating.

saw a ger workin there, was thinking wana go forward for her num. anot.. but after thinking of my prob.. i finally realised tt 1 of reason of im still single. I cant possible to take care a gf.. yah physcial i can take care ofcos.. but i mean is financial part.. i work every weekend.. enough for my daily expenses, bills.. everyone tot tt i work every weekend i will be loaded. but i dun tink im. yah mayb i can buy sum tees or watever when im shopping.. but tink twice in it, do i buy everytime when i shop ? not i nv seen thing i like, but i cant afford for e extra. haiz. and if i gt gf, worst. yah, if she is understanding than its is okie.. but ger always like their bf to pamper them.. and i cant. if i pamper them, i might ended up need to borrow from loan shark. LOL. kiddin =) and i wun be having time to accompany her during e weekend, cos usually im workin.. ya, after work can meet rite.. mayb one or two time can.. but after couple of time, she will find faults on it. and a quarrel is unavoidable. its difficult la.. everytime i saw a women im interested.. i cant pluck my courage to take their no. cos i dunwan my gf to suffer.. mayb not in future time.. but now.. she cfm will suffer. cos she have to give in to mi alot. and i dun like it. confused huh ? haha.. i oso tink so..

more or less, i will be in army in next few months. can she wait ? its not easy leh. HAHA. tts why i everytime say... if my buddy interested wit e same ger im fond. i will gib up. altot its stupid, happiness r suppose to be grab ! cos i hope tt he will gib her thing tt i cant gib her.. if i cant gib her my full-est.. i will choose to gib up. silly huh.. wat to do. tt my charater.. at least now is my view la.. but this view i will changed when time pass. i promised. cos i cfm will success, and i noe i will.. but will be a path filled wit stones.

and now my family so mani prob.. already make mi see sum scene of my future will be, i wun to be like tt.. dunwan !

juz back for supper wit koh, roy and jl. koh was damn down, so actually was accompany him to prevent go drinking until dead again. was damn full now.. and im waiting for mr ah ger a.k.a aloy to call my hp now. duh.. duno he go where die, nv online oso.. hmm my i juz back from genting oso. LOL~ damn fun~ i shall starts my trips below:

DAY 1. (fri)
took e bus to genting.. e jounrney.. ehh. ehh.. conlusion is if wana go genting, i will rather take plane than bus. i shall no explain y ! =) hmm.. finally reached genting at ard 6am where we actually took off from singapore abt 10pm. EIGHT HR !! ... and e weather was damn COLD ! mayb i not used to it ba and e fatal thing is I NV BRING JACKET !! AHHHHHHH superb freezing like hell. hmm.. than jl was "dead" in e room cos he was suffered heavy flu.

DAY 2.(sat)
Me, roy and koh went ard walking ~ haha.. took sum pic and koh bring us ard to memorise e place so tt i can go back to hotel if im lost. went to makan e wanton mee. DAMN NICE AR !! haha.. but quite exp~ but its sumsort like a set, includes drink. than went back to e room. K.O ~ haha.. slep until noon time wake up and went to shop ard.. actually i abit forget wat we do after next.. haha.. juz walk ard ba i guess.. than eat eat eat !! ard noon time, jl's dota frenz, jimmy cum find him.. he is a malaysian. than we go makan at e hot pot and he treat us.. lol.. than jl acc them while we 3 go shopping.. when go back, roy turn to sick.. lOL~ and i oso abit sick.. eat too much.. keep vomit.. duh.. LOL !!haha.. and i have kenny roger as my dinner i guess.. and its damn cheap ? LOL!! ordered family meal + 4 side dishes(ver big potion) than 4 muffins + 2 pepsi. each person abt S$12++ nia. if eat at singapore, i tink need abt 20 each ba. but ofcos, not all stuff from genting r cheap. sum r quite exp and not worth it..

DAY 3.(sun)
went to e theme park !! haha.. have a ver heavy breakfast of dim sum. and que at e bloodly long que for e tix.. hmmm roy was abit feveish so he actually skipped sum games.. and ofcos his phobia of height din allow him to play sum exciting game ~ so in d end jl was e one whu damn on.. haha.. he accompany mi play all e game.. our mission tt day was to play until worth e tix ! haha.. we played racing car.. damn nice sia ~ haha.. than e sumsort like merry go rd but e seats will fly up and down de... and a mini rollar coaster.. kohwee onli played sum game.. he is a photographer of tt day.. knn snatch my post. LOL~ hmm.. we tried e "superman" was damn fun !! haha.. but need extra $12 rigga. but it definitly worth e $ !! hee.. than go play e spaceshot.. wah.. damn high up lo !! i tink gt abt 8storey.. damn high la.. than slowly push u up to e top.. and suddenly let go, u wil drop in a ver fast speed.. than rebound back again.. haha.. tt game was damn scary as my phobia for height abit serious oso.. =( lOL~ but i din regret la.. i open my eyes throughout e session.. damn cool.. hee.. than like abt to rain.. and roy was damn sick.. we decicded to go back hotel first.. let roy take his medicine and rest.. not more than 30mins inside e hotel.. mi and jl went out again.. we go challenge e rollar coaster.. e big big one.. HAHA ~ damn long que sia.. and its my first time sit rollar coaster.. and e worst part is i damn COLD !! lol.. after sit e rollar coaster.. mi and jl go sit e space shot again.. wah ~ this time jl nv close his eyes.. i tell him close eyes wun able to enjoy e whole fun.. and he actually use a HUGH COKE CAN to focus instead of looking at e sceney at e top.. LOL~ than after tt we went to play e motor car again and again and again.. LOL!! damn fun.. we spotted sum gd car.. and keep playing and playing ~ =P until ard 8pm++ i tink.. we meet koh and roy for makan at e mee resturant. not bad ba.. e penang prawn mee.. =p hmm.. after tt go shop ard oso.. than go back hotel liao.. me and koh went down to coffee bean for chatting session.. we ordered cheese cake, carrot cake and drinks ~ e price there oso quite cheap.. compare to spore ba.. =p tok abt 2hrs i tink.. than go back up r room.. i kinda tired liao.. so i koon le.. and koh went out alone.. and ..............

DAY 3.(mon)
packed our bag and prepare to go home !! hee.. went to have our last meal at a "KPT" than go find e tour bus.. and we sat at e starbuck to drink to pass time.. cos we kinda early by 45mins i tink.. hohoho ~ e trips back was quite fast ba.. i din really slep.. but e seats cfm much more comfortable than e bus tt we came to genting.. haha.. abt 10pm than reached spore ba.. was soooo tired.. =p

hmm.. tue went lesson.. than its actually is my presentation for my final yr proj.. i was told when i reached there.. duh !! our film was showed to e judges.. and fellows sch mates.. LOL~ damn paisei !! haha.. but e feedbacks not bad leh.. haha.. alot ppl claps~ yeah ~~ =p dunno can win anot..

going downstair liao, aloy juz called mi.. ask mi go downstair take thing.. haha.. =p cya peeps.

0205am.

My final year proj film was submited for competition.

i damn slepy now. din slep at all since yesterday. Yesterday was a GOD-DAMN-NO-MOOD day.

why ?

noon was still okie, im still outside wit my asrians at town, saw alot of nice clothes and was damn tempt. but i controlled. and i seen e jacket again, really no more L. damn. disappointment filled. and go back kovan for our dinner and than I MAKE A WRONG DECISION, i go meet zx & co.

tai, zx, shun, willis, hz, ah lian, gl. woot. was a disaeter for me tt nite. its took mi 6hrs, to see thru wat is frenz. HAHA!! im blind always, always.. i should skip those boring session of pool/billard and supper. went to punggol park and take a seat for resting. saw a bench and sit on it, than wz cum over and sit wit mi. i was okie abt it. as im damn tired so i juz wana rest. i din really tok to her or start convasation wit her, she is e one keep asking mi question and my job was juz reply. i sensed sumthing not wrong. a few pairs of eyes was looking at mi like machiam im extra there, and sad to say ppl started to say gossip. saying i buay zi tong y dunwan gib sit to zx, so tt he can tok wit wz. and saying i hong or watever shit.

IF wana say mi HONG, pls show mi evidents b4 u say any rubbish. knn dun tok as if u noe mi ver long. u wana check my sms ? or outgoing calls ? see u can find how mani gers name. cb.

worst part. tt wz was abt going home. she asked mi wana go home anot, i was totally stunned. why she ask mi ? knn i dun even noe her well, so mani guys she onli wana ask mi. wtf? ofcos i rejected. and in d end? sumone tell mi luckily i nv say yes to go wit her, or else i will be beaten up. i was like WTF? wat tt gt to do wit mi ? i all e while was e quiet party. and in d end i kana accused. oei, tok less doesnt mean u can put words in my mouth okie.

after tt, send hz home. zx, w send shun home. in d end while sending hz, i saw them behind e blocks following us. more ke yan is, they wana us to leave and wana tok personally wit hz. im fine wit it. altot i admit tt i do have sum feelings on her, doesnt mean tt i wana xian her. more or less she said there alot prevets. so i requested e 3 to cum down first than we leave. in d end i was accused too fake ? too gentleman ?.. haha.. i really have nothing to say. e whole nite i was like all e while in wrongs. and they r all e while CORRECT. woot. damn cool.

on d way home, i was thinking.. i dun feel belongings in e grp. onli kl and tai r much closer to me, others i have no comments. i was thinking, all e while i accept their bad pts as i still treat them as frenz cos in my views, gd frenz r e one whu will accept ur bad pts. i do e same way but was treat granted. HAHA~ they nv recall back whu helps they when they need helps. in e middle of test i help them call frenz for helps on sumthing else but in d end i get back wat ? SHIT ? haha.. mayb a maid will be living better than mi. at least she get paid and im not. LOL !

i dun tink tt i have any wrongs wit it lo.

I HAVE NO WRONGS. I DID NTH.

i have made e worst decision.

1324pm